Monday, June 18, 2012

Father's Day for the childless

Father's Day, a time to celebrate the awesomeness that is our fathers! Especially our heavenly Father above! However I was in Dollar Tree this morning with my Mom, and we were selecting a card for the Dad's in our lives. As I stood there reading a card for my grandfather, I thought of my dear husband who is again without a son or daughter to rejoice in the fact of being a father. I thought of what an amazing Dad he'll be someday, and it was a very bittersweet moment. I hurt for my husband, even though he hasn't said once today how he isn't a Dad as of yet...I felt sorrow just like I had around Mother's day. I am scared of having a child depend on me and raise it in the way that is should go...however that doesn't lessen my feelings. Every month the God tells us "Not right now, it isn't time yet" I have such a hard time keeping my head up and not second guessing the "whys" of His choice. I know it will happen, trust me I KNOW this...I also hear it all the time. I also hear: "Enjoy your husband! You will never get this time again." I think if I hear this sentence once more I will explode! I say that because I AM, I AM enjoying my husband! This is so frustrating to hear. It just is hard  for both of us around that certain time of the month when it is obvious not going to be that month...again. I am so proud of my husband, I want him to have a baby so much. Sweetie, here is a card to you that I would have bought today if they sold it:

Sweetheart, today there are so many reasons to list how amazing you are. How much you do for others, and for me. I wish this card could say more as to how special you are to me and all those around you. I wish today was the day we had a baby, or had found out we were expecting. Since this is not that day, I want you to know how thankful I am to have you, and how much you bless me everyday. How sweet you're and kind. You're going to be a fantastic father someday, so a very Happy Father's Day my love.

Love- your sweet baby girl

I know there are so very many couples like us, unable to have children or just not gotten pregnant. I used to feel unhappy that they were out there. Now knowing some of where they're coming from my heart completely goes out to them, to you if you are reading this! (((hugs)))

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Thursday, March 8, 2012

FAQ Page!

Hey All, sorry we haven't been on too much, but I wanted to post really quick that we added a "FAQ" page to our blog! So go on over and check it out. :D.


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Thursday, February 23, 2012

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on me

For sure my Mother has had the greatest impact: She has always been there for me and helped me through the darkest times in my life. She is more of a sister to me than a Mom (though she knew how to be both, aka parenting). I am so thankful for her, she is such a wonderful, and amazing person.

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Saturday, February 18, 2012

In sickness...

My dearest has been off work for a little over a week now, and wouldn't you know? We both have been sick, pretty much the whole time. Nothing severe just a weird bug and allergies. Two things my love hates most, espesically having them on vacation time. I must say I am not the best at compassion for his discomfort, when it has gone on this long (....that just sounds awful). I keep thinking "why can't he just NOT complain SO much?" or "I know he feel icky, but so do I!"...*sigh* Me, me, me. I am so very self-absorbed, marriage has given me a reality check into just how selfish I am. Marriage is about a husband and wife being there for each other....even down to our vows we said "In sickness and in health". Before I got married, I saw this through some major "rose colored glasses". I never imagined it would be hard! It is hard enough living with yourself, but adding a person you are supposed to care of, and love and commit to isn't easy. Just like it isn't easy commiting to God, because sometimes He can lead down a scary path, and you have to trust that He is there holding your hand.

Not that I am trying to scare you unwed ladies out there! Marriage is by far the best experiance I have ever encounter, and the good far outweighs the bad. It is a blessing having a husband I can count on and trust that he will be doing his best to make the right choices, as God shows him the path.

As my Mom always puts it: "When he is driving you CRAZY, just remember it is only a 5%. Meaning out of a 100%, only 5% is the part that drives you up the walls. (trust me this will happen, and the BEST way to learn patience, is living with your siblings. If you can keep calm with them, you will have a much easier time in a marriage.)

Hmmm, I think I have been carrying on enough, mainly when I am frustrated I stop talking and just try to take some deep breathes, and then as I had to do tonight apologise for again being rude and disrespectful for his feelings. Praying for patience is needed, as I have been doing so this must be my test >.< I keep wishing my week to become normal again to escape this, which makes me feel HORRID for wishing! I love spending time with my hubby and have LOVE having him home for Valentine's week. Tomorrow is the last day before he has to return to work, I hate that I have made him feel that I am tired of having him home.

Please married ladies out there!

-What have you found helps when you are bubbling up with frustration?

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Day 06- My favorite super hero and why

Superhero? I never much was into that stuff (geeky nerd style)......Ok I lied slightly....

(photo courtesy of "The Sun" )

DR.WHO, in my favorite person to play him- David Tennant! Why? He is cute, and he plays the part WELL! It is a show about the Dr. who is a timelord and he travels and picks up friends along the way and has such great adventures!

If you haven't seen "Dr.Who" the series is on Netflix (currently played by Matt Smith- who is also pretty fabulous I must say) , and the last season on BBCamerica. :D

Day 05- A picture of somewhere I've been to

This was at the "Great Smoky Mountains National Park", it was for our honeymoon (December 2010)....*sigh* so beautiful! This was one of my favorite photos from the trip.

Friday, January 27, 2012

Day 04- A habit that I wish I didn't have

I eat my feelings- mostly when I am depressed or sad. :/ It is such a hard habit to break.

Day 03- A picture of me and my friends

 My best friends since highschool. We have mostly gone our ways since graduation, but we still try to keep close! This was taken at Bailee's wedding, she has one son and is preggy with her second. Lauren is studying at IHOP right now. :D

Day 02- The meaning behind my blog name

We are a couple following God's path, 100% and completly in our lives. So this is our journey!

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Day 01- A recent picture of me and 15 interesting facts about myself

1. I have been doing photography for over 6 years. I fell in love with the art when my handsome brother, Ash was born in 2006.

2. There is a 9-year gap between me and my next oldest sibling, India - we are like oil and water together. We can always push each others buttons.

3. My first camera was $200 dollars, which I bought by my parents. I paid it off with my first babysitting job of $10 a week. (I walked a girl home from school from across the st.)

4. I changed from the the bad habit of buying on credit and swore I'd NEVER do that again, and so with my highschool graduation money and my generous life group - I bought my Pentax, debt free at $1000.

5. I am opening my photography business, probably next month ("follow" my blog or FB to get updating on when) selling cards, and we are 100% debt free with this business.

6. I am in full support of home-births, and plan on having them myself - Lord willing.

7. I was born with no wisdom teeth

8. I "lost" my last baby tooth - just this week.

9. I moan in my sleep. (sounds like I am trying to talk in whatever I'm dreaming)

10. I've been there to see all my siblings be born.

11. I am a natural blonde.

12. I HATE the feel of velvet, it makes me shudder just to think about it.

13. I use an EGG shampoo to wash my hair (post on this to come! But I will say it has worked wonders for my hair)

14. I have been blogging since I was 14. (old blog link in sidebar)

15. I (and Josh of course) do not believe in any form of birth control, and believe in giving God full control in the order and spacing of our children.